ASTRAL WARD
in consideration of this serializing process
when did it start? i guess this particular spiral started when i watched a certain video by a specific channel. after watching the video i felt like the subject matter of it was something that i vibed with. something i could get a lot out of if i went to the source. i planned to do so at the earliest available moment, however this was not that point. I was otherwise occupied, locked-in as they say. and I found the presenter themselves has a vibe that i could jive with as well. I decided to look at their channel to see what other videos they had on similar topics and so it was that i discovered that they had a large number of videos going back several years, including what appeared to be a few which covered tangent materials to the source matter that had captured me. These videos were not terribly recent as far as recency goes on wire. stale, vintage, old news. but that concept is something which is more or less imposed on me from without. what could be more fresh than something i had never encountered? what could be more relevant than a rabbit hole i just discovered i wanted to explore? so I queued them up in order of their publishing. these videos spanned a significant portion of the channels life history, the first having been released a year or so shy of the channel's inception, and the latest having been released a year or so prior to the present at time of my discovery. and so it was that the absorption of these videos would also serve as a core sample of the evolution of the channel as well as a broad strokes familiarizing with the related tangent material i had become interested in. And so i watched the videos and went about my other activities which had me previously occupied. I feel the need to mention, though it takes some time to convey the thought process about this going through the channel and selecting videos, it did not take time to think it. an instantaneous notion, outside language, it was something remembered in real-time rather than something plotted and planned. as if the browsing of the channel and selecting the videos was the smell of a flower i have not encounted since my childhood which transported me back to that moment. perhaps that is obvious. But as it takes considerable time to break that recollection into lexical units and encode them with language, then error check them for logical consistency with error correction, the error of the communication itself became misaligned with the experience of the moment to degree that I could not allow it to pass uncorrected. Please forgive my digression if it was obvious from the outset. I passively absorbed these videos over the next day. I paid no special attention to their order, however my tendencies when seeing a new channel and how I queue the videos on that channel would naturally strongly bias toward chronological order. I noticed in various ways the evolution of the channel, the production value on the scenes, the audio quality, the writing, specific word choices, the addition of canned phrasings, of sponsors and the changes of each aspect over time. I found there was a sweet spot which had been passed quite some time ago. the earliest videos had a rough amateurishness where the appeal of the subject matter pull the weight but the charm of the host was muted by the quality of the work. the writing was clumsier, stilted. perhaps that has pull in it's own right, and in isolation I would tend to agree. I don't often follow channels through interface controls, so to ask were the video's of the early era subscribe worthy is somewhat lost on me. I would have had that channel one to watch, but i would do so manually, and naturally when the urge to see "what they have gotten up to" came bidden to me unprompted. If a channel is worth following it's worth remembering enough to be able to find it again using meat memory to pick up the treads to find it. I of course learned more about the subject matter. the part that enamored itself to me was one saga within an anthology of various related sagas which all took place within the same continuity spanning a large section of that world's goings-on. the first video in the lineup covering the relatively most popular and incidentally first chronologically within the time span. however the videos would not go on to cover the rest of the sequence in chronological nor subject matter release order as they were all different orderings. This kind of atemporality is somewhat common in these kinds of long spanning epics. There are certain key moments which the creator more strongly desires to share, and does so in the order most expedient to that end at the time. The first might be the only to ever be made so that should cover the most pressing moments. if fate deigns to allow for more exposition perhaps moving back in the timeline to add surrounding context to that moment may be the desired path, or moving far down the history to hit the next most expedient moment. As the creator themselves is bound by serializing temporality such accommodations are necessary. This same pressure is weighing down on all those bound by this phenomenon we call time, so it naturally effects the source material author, as well as the video author. Of course it effects us here and now as well. My interest in the subject matter was further fanned rather than dampened by what I learned. This is not atypical. I have a quite high threshold for positive interests. I may miss things i would be interested but have dismissed, however there are already too many things in this world I have found to be interested in already. Missing a few here and there in favor of having an ability to zero in on things which are very likely to be quite interesting is a trade off i am more than willing to take. If were were not bound by the temporal serialization process this would need to be revised. Being left with only middlingly interesting things because i found all the most interesting things first would quickly become a hell of an existence. When the time arrived that I had opportunity to acquire and input the source material I did so with voracity. I don't love this aspect about myself, but I have no moderator. I am either off or on, and so when something is good I dig through it with utmost zeal, then once I have quickly reached its end I am left with the longing of the departed. In many such cases I will, as I did in this case, go through it again. It is common that a review of something will bring new insight. Even within the mundanities it is possible to pull out more on subsequent iterations. More so with the true gems. The supplicant at the beginning and the end should be different, if the work is of any significance to the observer, and greater divergence is acquired with more significant material. On the further iterations I took time to document notes. To digest, rather than breathe the material.
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atemporal_dreamscape denpa focus law safe